it’s confirmed: i’m not dying from the dyingness
So I think I may just have plain old candida, nothing more — the tests came back from the rheumatologist and there is no sign of an auto-immune disease or other conditions such as lupis etc. My ESR is back down to being super low and, though my tongue is still disgusting, it could be from a number of factors including vitamin deficiency, which I do know I have.
My useful candida bible says that “candida yeast is a type of fungus, a microorganism that is not beneficial for the body; therefore, it is called an “unfriendly” bacteria. Candida exists everywhere and humans come in contact with it throughout the day on everything hey touch, in the air they breathe, and on most of what they consume.”
— Complete Candida Yeast Guidebook by Jeanne Marie Martin
It’s not a problem unless it decides it wants to grow or “overgrow” as the book says and then it starts to get involved in taking over and deteriorating the lining of your stomach (it compromises the natural flora). Eventually the lining of the gut can become “leaky gut” and then chunks of food do not digest and start to spill out into the bloodstream — and you can actually feel this happening. I’ve only noticed now, as it starts to repair, that this was exactly how it felt. It also kind of starts to attack or fill up your organs — kind of like a parasite just trying to make its own way in your body. Eventually, if left untreated, it can turn into cancer or an auto-immune condition and it’s really quite difficult to get rid of (starving it out and killing it with good bacteria and anti-fungals is the only real way to go). It also can’t be detected on any test other than a food sensitivity test. Which is part of the problem in why the doctors don’t believe in it and think that you are crazy instead (very helpful to tell someone who feels like death already that they are crazy).
Here,’s my short form version of why I think it’s candida and how candida can affect you:
Tipping points (of which there are too many to name):
-long-term use of steroids (such as the pill) = check
-poor diet full of starch and sugar (after 5 years at University, this, including over-consumption of alcohol would be a definite) = check
-use of antibiotics that strip the body of the already compromised flora (when the symptoms started getting bad, ie my throat closing up, etc., they prescribed SO many drugs)
-coughing and sneezing all of the time
-low B12 (and other vitamins)
-vision trouble, especially at the beginning and while standing
-food cravings and sensitivites
-weight loss (30 pounds)
-plain old inability to function and no energy resources
(basically if you go down any list, I’ve got them all)
Wow — that pretty much sums it up as far as check points for the disease. Now the battle is on.
It’s been almost 9 months of the restrictive diet (no gluten, sugar, dairy) and I think it’s starting to work.
Tipping points back to health:
-L. ascidophilis — I could actually feel the 2 cultures battling it out in my intestine
-Side not hurting as much
-Tongue improving (though still gross)
-Restrictive diet finally paying off
-Visits to the osteopath
-Flax seed consumption (helps with inflammation)
-and, of course, the smoothies
So — I have more healthy tipping points that the ones that led me here to begin with. Let’s just hope that this really is the only thing wrong.
I’m also starting a campaign to educate doctors about candida — I’m going to send the rheumatologist information, because I think that she’d actually be interested in it and genuinely doesn’t know about it at all. My mom thinks I should send all of my doctors candida information packages. Haha. I should start a support group!
Anyway, perhaps this means that you won’t have to hear about the dyingness quite as much from now on. Damn, I’m going to have to start to find something interesting to talk about.